So, i'm finally awake and past the drops.

Wow....just wow.

I had no clue what to expect walking into ICBB. All i knew is what i had been told by others. I had no idea how this event would affect me personally. Before this weekend, i don't think i understood the term "brotherhood." When i ran for my SELF Bootblack title, i competed against myself. I wasn't sure what it would be like to compete with 7 other people. It was so amazing. 

Throughout the weekend there were shouts of encouragement, back slaps, tins of polish chunked across a room to help someone out. There were more hugs and cuddles and snuggles than i've ever experienced. There was someone to dry your tears when you felt like you had just blown a portion of the contest. There was aspirin or aleve or ibuprofen when you had a headache. There was always Mountain Dew for just the right pick me up. And you never knew when one or more of us would burst out with "Bird is the word" LMAO!! 

Fun is the only true way i can think of to describe this event. I had such an amazing freaking time. The staff, the producers, the judges, the attendees, the Sirs and boys, and especially the other blacks made this event the highlight of my year. I may not have come home with an international title (but hey, 3rd place at a competition of this caliber is nothing to sneeze at), but i sure as heck came home with 7 new brothers and sisters, 20 other amazing men who i stood on stage with as classmates, more friends than a boi has the right to hope for, and the knowledge that i did my region, my Owner, my family, and my friends proud. I did the best job possible and i'm proud of myself and every single person who had the guts to get out on that stage in San Francisco.

Thank you first to the people who helped me get to San Francisco, everyone who helped with my initial fundraiser in January, the Lloyd E Russell Foundation, and my family. This would never have been possible without the financial support i received. 

Thank you to my Owner for traveling with me and being able to step out of our roles for a few days and just be whatever was needed at the time. I will also add here how very proud i am of You. You were amazing for each and every one of us in so many different ways. I watched You grow this weekend in ways even you didn't think possible. I love you...You suck!

Thank you to my family for supporting me in this endeavor and for holding down the fort while we were gone. Its always sad to be away but oh so good to come home. 

To Archer, Elegant, Q, Nef, and Kristen...thank you for always being there with whatever was needed at any given time. You were all the most amazing den staff/handlers/coordinators we possibly could have hoped for.

Thank you to my producers. You couldn't go with me, but i always felt like you were there no matter what. Your support was unfailing every step of the way.

To every person i met, spoke to, or interacted with in any way this weekend, know that you impacted my life for the better and for always. 

To Brandon, Blast, Diamond Jack, boy blu, Chris, Kyle, and Evan...you guys are all amazing, i couldn't be prouder to consider you all my brothers/sisters. We have to stick together. We will always be the ICBB Class of 2009 "The Year of the Bird" and the Frat Boys of Leather. 

To Evan, Congratulations and good luck. You deserved it brother. Love you.

Much love and humble gratitude,
Andy

So that silken shadow doesn't pout...here's the pic of my new cutting....

( Sorta NSFW )

*peeks in and looks around at this blank canvas*

Oh, yeah, I still have an LJ. Whoops! Okay, so its been over a month since i posted anything here. Life has taken alot of twists and turns in that time. I won't bore you with the details. Lets just say that I've been navigating the ins and outs of an M/s relationship that was never supposed to be, and working on a triad that continues to amaze me every day. Also in that time, livlyredhead  and I parted ways. There is and was no animosity in this decision. I couldn't be what she needed. I wish her the best in all ways and will always count her among my closest friends.

I have been traveling like a fiend in support of my Owners title and fulfilling obligations left over from my own. I have been to Alabama, Charlotte, Atlanta and lots of points in between. I have been renewing friendships from years past and doing alot of healing of my own heart. I have taken the time to realize how much i have truly grown over the years that i have been involved in the lifestyle community. I am lucky and grateful that the people who knew me 4 years ago when i attended my first munch will come up to me to tell me how proud they are of me and of my growth.

I have fallen in love with a girl who loves me for me and wants to stand beside me for the next 50 years or so. Its the last thing i expected and one of the first things i am thankful for every day. She is strong, talented, smart, and beautiful. And somehow she manages to love me despite my idiosyncrasies or maybe because of them.

All in all I'm a lucky boi!

This past weekend was tough for me, but good. I attended Southern Womens Bash. I went to this event last year and really enjoyed it. This year was no different. It had its ups and downs. And at least I'll never have to go through "first time away from my family on my own" anxiety again. Next time will be easier. Weekend highlights and lowlights:

+Being in service and under protection of a very wonderful Lady that i'm proud to call a part of my family. Thank you so much annie63

+Lots and lots of hang out time with the inestimablearchers_elegant I absolutely adore my Big Sister, even when she decides to once again move "National pick on Andy day" and turn it into a full weekend event. But, i can't and never will be able to say enough good things about her. I totally nipple you.

+Teaching the hot boots hot scenes class with Elegant. I love licking that womans boots and getting beat up by her. But damn it, does she have to know freaking pressure points too!

+Totally crushing on 3 absolutely lovely ladies and one gorgeous  FtM. And getting to spend loads of time with 3 out of 4 of them.

-Missing the hell out of my Owner and my girlfriend.

+Pizza picnics in a hotel room with two half naked ladies! Yay!

-Missing the flaming nasal marshmallow.

+bootpig  Need i really say more? Okay, if i must i must. I got to spend loads of time with her this weekend. She is absolutely one of the coolest people ever. And she gave me a hellacious knee to the left thigh that was still hurting 4 days later. Today is the first day i've been able to walk up and down stairs without pain. It was great!

+Getting to know and getting beat up by passionandsoul Pretty bruises! Yay! Definitely one of the most awesome people i've met recently!

+Got to see tons of my friends that i don't see nearly as much as i used to. And, lets just say, i saw one of them in a position i never thought to see him in. It was wild and thankfully i was able to sneak a picture. hehehe

-Nowhere near enought time talking with southern_femme but she was a tad busy. At least i got to see her and she chomped on my neck and shoulder friday night which was very nice indeed.

+Making it home in time to enjoy part of FFF and go to my owners Dominance Bondage class. My girlfriend was so sweet. She once again let him win so that he would save face. I mean how nice is that!?! LOL!

+Coming home and cuddling up to watch True Blood and let the stress of the weekend melt away.

Next up: DomCon then winging off to the west coast for ICBB. Yall send lots of positive vibes my way. I'm scared shitless about competing.

And, last night, my Owner did the biggest cutting either of us have done. It stretches from one shoulder to the other. Its the kanji for Peace, Love, and Happiness. Hopefully I'll get a picture of it up on here soon. It took 7 scalpel blades and about an hour to complete. It was awesome. I flew high and fast.

I love and miss you all.

Bunny Out!

My Master played this song for me last night and said it makes him think of me. As i read the lyrics I think it could equally apply to our relationship. But, its an absolutely beautiful song, even if i don't like Depeche Mode.

Shine-Depeche Mode

Put on your blindfold
And a dress that's tight
And come with me
On a mystery night
Open your eyes

Follow our stars under a painted sky
We'll leave the world behind
We're learning to fly
We used to get by

Forget the pictures on your TV screen
We'll steal the visions
That you keep for your dreams
You can turn me on

I was blind and I saw the light
My angel coming
In a brilliant white
Shine for me

You've been hanging from a rope of mediocrity
Strung up by your insecurities
You can shine for me
Somebody has to
Shine for me
It's difficult not to
Shine for me

Follow our stars under a painted sky
We'll leave the world behind
We're learning to fly
We used to get by

Forget the pictures on your TV screen
We'll steal the visions
That you keep for your dreams
You can turn me on

You've been hanging from a rope of mediocrity
Strung up by your insecurities
You can shine for me
Somebody has to
Shine for me
It's difficult not to
Shine for me
Somebody has to
Shine for me
It's difficult not to
Shine for me

Okay those who know me well will know why it took me a few minutes to stop laughing after i read this question. But, i do have an answer for it. My favorite vampire and the one i would most want to be bitten by is Jean Claude from the Anita Blake Vampire Hunter Series by Laurell K. Hamilton. He is the most sensual and amazing vampire character i have ever read.

Wow, what a difference 3 short days can make. Sitting over waffles and eggs at the Waffle House on Sunday afternoon, Nef looked at me and said "You know what, there's no point fighting it, you are My boi and I am your Sir. (or some paraphrase thereabout)" My heart jumped into my throat and i fought back the "oh so not-boi like" tears that threatened. I can honestly say that i have never been happier than when he wrapped his hand in my collar and whispered "My boi."

No one has ever made me feel as loved and accepted as my Sir and my little girl do, as my whole family does. I feel more wanted and more secure right now than ever before. He is the first person to look at all the pieces and parts of me and want them all. I feel safe and happy.

And as to my weekend, all i can say is "If those walls could talk, they'd be blushing too." *GRINS*

His Bunny Out!

My favorite french thing is the language. I have been studying this language off and on since i was 11. It is the most beautiful language I have ever spoken. No other language is so capable of expressing love.

Take for example the phrase: Je t'aime mon couer. Je reve de toi. This means: I love you my heart. I dream of you.

The words are so lyrical and sweet.

To one of my favorite people:





Okay, couldn't resist!!!!!

Hope its a great one!!

I wish i was a rock.
Rocks don't get scared.
Rocks aren't vulnerable.
If i were a rock, nothing could hurt me. 

I am still alive. Barely. And yes i finally went to the doctor. Respiratory tract infection and pneumonia in my left lung. But, i'm getting better thanks to antibiotics and fluids.

I will post about SELF soon.

To the incomparable gowains_erin 



Much love and hugs to you!!!

Happy Birthday wolfinakilt 

To my best friend on your birthday. I have never in my life known anyone like you. No one exasperates me like you do. No one supports me like you do. No one makes me want to pull my hair out like you do. But one thing is for sure, no one loves me like you do. And my darling Jean Claude, no one loves you like I do.

As you celebrate your birthday today, don't forget that no one is more glad you are alive than me. All my any and everythings forever. You are now and forever, my very best friend.

Best friends forever,
Ma Petite

For the first time in a very long time, i'm completely at a loss for the words to express any of the things that have happened to me lately. The last three events i have attended have all affected me in very profound ways and i don't know how to put any of it into words. Its very frustrating for me.

I hope they come soon.

Bunny out

Just so everyone knows, i am still alive. I have been traveling like a fiend as i wind down my travel year. Dallas, Atlanta, Houston, Tennessee, Atlanta,Virginia, Atlanta, Louisiana, Atlanta...LOL. I have barely had time to do laundry, much less anything more fun.

I still owe posts about Frolicon, NLA-Houston Spring Iniquity, the air show, and my crazy crazy life.

But, i'm here and i have my cell phone back up and running, so if you tried to text or call me in the last couple of weeks and didn't get a response, i was having issues, please try again.

Much love to you all, i will post after SJW2.

Bunny out!